Friday (27 November 2009) bersamaan 10 zuhlijah

I woke up pretty much early today as I am going to visit the graveyard with my mother. I reached the Boon Lay Mrt early and I was proud of myself... Then we went to the cemetery by public transport. We were lost. We had to walk all the way there by foot instead. It was not glamorous at all. We visited Abang Boy’s first. Today is his 2nd month… I miss him so dearly now... I cried there. It was unstoppable. Then we visited Kakak Hasanah. I was pretty much chocked up by then... I had to talk in my heart... then we went to My Mother’s graveyard…
It was actually my grandmother but I have treated her like my own mother since she took care of me since baby. I was speechless. I had 2 mothers by me and I don’t know what to say. I wanted my mother (grandmother) to come back but at the same time I want my maternal mother by me. There is no choice of course... But I wish Emak could see what happen to me after she left me in 2006. Then we headed to Jurong Point to meet Bibik. We took a taxi from there to IMM. We practically shopped.
Then it was time for me to go home... It is getting late and it was raining. When I reached home, I ate the delicious food that Kak Ela served and watched TV. Around 6pm or later, I fall asleep. I woke up at 8pm plus. I dreamt of something. It was beautiful. I almost regretted waking up as it was so surreal! If only the stupid phone won’t ring that loud and long.
I dreamt I met my dearest brother. I was also in a relationship with one of his friends at the same time. We hanged out and had a bundle of fun. I can’t remember all the parts of the dream... I remembered that we spent the time together joking around. I called him Bie and he was like “Ape benda?” I then said “where is my boyfriend?”It was funny... I went to his house and ate there. Brother and I spent a lot of time together. Then I was in a taxi with Bapak and Mama, Mama wanted to go home so she dropped off somewhere at her place and Bapak was very quiet. He waved goodbye to me as I planned to come over to Mama’s house. I text my Brother this “Kau patne? Aku nk jumpe kau ah” Something like that. But he never replied at all. I hugged Bapak but he refused to be hugged. I was technically climbing on him for a hug. He gave in and hugs me. He kept telling me that his birthday is 20 plus September when it was 10 September. Then I kissed him of course... He was so shocked that I did that.
When I woke up, I regretted it. I wanted that dream to last forever, where there is me with my dearest brother, there’s my maternal mother with my biological father.. They don’t have to be together but at least they meet and talk like old friends. I was filled with bliss. I missed my brother.
I remembered in the dream that I hugged him and he returned it, we were just having fun together. I wanted that to happen like so long ago but I know that it’s impossible now that he is gone forever and never coming back.
Am I able to meet him again in the future? I want to… know everything about you brother and I won’t stop just there. I love you so much

WEEEEE~~~ the butterflies !!

Let me tell you this !! :D

Monday, Tuesday,Wednesday:

Great arr, I think I went somewhere on Monday, but where uhh ? Oh, I think I go.. uhm..Okay, Basically, I went to Bishan on one of the days to collect Nyssa Phone ! then lepak at Fira house laa for a little while before heading to Reen house to watch HISTERIA! Okay, it was damnn scary, especially the part where the ghost just pop out from no where !!! Then, I remembered sleeping over at Nyssa house on Monday night.. Wasn't scary laa, you know, kak fiza loves to scare the hell out of me..

then tuesday, I went To EAST COAST PARK with Rahim and Dear Rachel LOh. HEEHEHHEHEE.. I was late arr, i just came baq from Nyssa house maahh..

We were lost btw.. we don't know how to get there, ridiculous ! We reached there of course, like an hour later.. then, we check out that place and then we were lost again.. finding mac !?! GOD

After that, I went home, if i am not wrong.. Insyirah was sick, on one of those days.. Then Wednesday.. I went to Yishun.. I think..

Thursday:

The stupid ADSS open house at 12.30pm. I came at 1pm. I went to Changi for a visit and then rushed my way to SCHOOL. It was fun ! Not the open house but the committee..

We played poker cards, we ate mac,( we sneaked out in between the open house) and we had fun in the habour ! I can't believe we're called SC?! It was CRAZYY ! Ama didnt know how to play poker cards !?! HAHAHA ! We played alot of card games and the pool too :)

Friday:

I think its called

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA !

:)

I remembered something today and i am scared of it

AWESOMEEE !!! :))

So maybe .. I will not forget her after all. I LOVE YOU MUM





This whole week was great !




































Then came a news about 2012 ! haha ! Let's not believe that crap !

I wanna say..

Labels: don't fell yet

haha, i saw you today ! :)

Then came another evil spirit !

hehe, so long never update. not my fault laa ! im busy with life, the ups and downs . With F&N too laa. So, Its understandable..

Let's see, EOY finish already.. soo, thank god ! The results were fair. I failed Maths again ! E8. :D

The yearbook sucks bigg time laa ! Right after we received our yearbook, these two boys in my class were laughing like nobody buiz. I mean, hello ! Im like right under your nose and there you are laughing ruthlessly !!!! Well, Jing Wen saw me right then, I told her its okay.. Well, who cares ? Stupid boys.

Brigding like stupiddd laaa. Monday got the F&n thingy... Made chocolatessss... NOT NICE ! hehehe. Its been raining non-stop lately and im worried because I have only a pair of shoes to start with and Im worried that i am not able to meet R ! SO stupid laaa !

BTW, I've made a new rule for myself ! I have to be home before mahgrib everyday !! haha , coolio right ?? hehe, im sticking to it ahh ! Good gal. I don't want them to fight again because of me, that sucks biggg time ! hahha !

Then Tuesday go DNA LAB thingy which was so cool laa. I like it ! haha ! but that guy in my class really spoilt my mood ahh. He said something and then the whole group laughed. My two galfwens heard it but pretended not to.. Well, I didn't hear it laa but they told me when we're in school , which made me sooo damn angry ahh ! WHO IS HE TO SAY THAT ABOUT ME ?! WE'RE SO OVER AND WHY CAN'T HE GET THAT STRIAGHT ?!

Last time , i just shut up laa ! I don't mentioned it at all because I respected you ! NOW?! It's so not cool ! IM DAMN PISSED OFF BECAUSE THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME I HEARD ALL THAT CRAP COMING OUT OF YOUR MOUTH !

SO, his besties of whoever who read this and all, if you wanna confront me or what, go on.. i don't bother.. so, uhm, yea ?

Then, i violated my own rule ! I went out at night (ON TUESDAY) and met R . hehe, wasn't my real intention laa but whatever.. hehe. I was missing R like crazy and had to meet R ! <3

weee~

peace;
wait, let me tell you this,
" KALAU KAU SAKET HATI PAT AKU SEBAB APE YANG TELAH LAMA TERJADI, AKU MINTAK MAAF ! "

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