Music is my remedy :D

February 14, 2010 Y 7:47 PM

No, I have to be true to myself

I am so confused of my own feelings.

XQ will never know, and no, you won't tell him!

COS u don't have a clue who!

& please it's not AZAM

He's gay! :D

NOW, what do you think I should do?

Tell XQ?

NOPE! BAD BAD IDEA!

I need inspiration! I need some motivation!

C'mon, even encouragement

Well, I don't mind thinking of XQ everyday.

Every minute, just trying to remember how he really looks like in my head.

Hmm..

I can't help it. Everytime I tell myself that it's imposiible, the possible vibe starts to take over instead.

I MISS XQ NOW!

C'mon Efa, pick up the phone and call.

NO! :(

SO now what?

LOL

HELP!

I miss him so much.

& when he looked at me and gave me that ' I rock' kinda look,

it makes me feel all ... restless

When it's the end of the day, we said our final goodbyes,

I feel so sad, like I don't wanna say goodbye

& when we talked about the future,

I can't help it but to insert him in every single picture.

Then when he said he wanted to enter that specific course,

I am so sure well be separated in the énd cos we're not going for the same goal.

But I am scared of losing him.

The funny moments we share,

& I can't forget the look on his face when he got scolded from the teacher.

& the expression on his face when he heard a NOT FUNNY JOKE.

LOL

When he kept saying "Stop saying LOL"

I can't never forget the way he always look at me when he feels bored, like you know, those look when you just wan that other party to look at you and laugh?

IDK how to explain.

& when he said, "sorry no presents"

I can't help but to feel disappointed.

But I knew that his presence in my life is a bless,

no need any presents cos ur presence is a gift in my life.

WOAH

He mean so much to me,

I love him

So now, Im trying not to sing
"ohh baby, baby, baby ohhh
Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby ohh
thought u'd always be mine"

-then i make sure that I ROCK

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